Starting the first week of your last transfer makes for some major reflection time. This week has been everything, once again I've felt the full range of human emotion smushed together in 7 days. Mission life is ripe and delicious and I am trying to capture everything in my mind, engrave it on the walls so it never goes away! Here's this week's moments I never want to forget:
1. Slipping in a rice field for the hundredth time. Haha i swear! these crocs man! we were exploring in the most beautiful paradise you could ever imagine, ocean in view, different leveled rice fields stretching out forever. We were jumping and climbing and everything in between them and at one point I slipped and my entire leg up to my knee plunged into hot mud :) my shoe was totally gone and luckily a random guy heard my scream and came and fished it out with a stick! The best part is in all my expertise I managed to not get a speck of mud on my stretched out bleached stained skirt! Hallelu! Oh wait thats not the best part- the best part is we got to use my muddiness as a finding tool and go walk up to random houses and ask to wash off and share the gospel too while we're at it :) My area is soooo beautiful I feel like I'm living in a calendar :D
2. We taught don don this week. From the hips down he's severely disabled and crawls around with flip flops on his hands (wait I wrote already about him- the one that freaked out sis a cause it was like the grudge?) he crawled out of his hut and we sat on these boulders under papaya trees and taught the restoration. He accepted a baptismal date! We made sure he would be ok getting to church, he said he'd just drag himself to the highway and catch a trycee.
3. Sister Kharine is on fire! She is amazing! Something has just clicked in her, there is a new light in her eyes and it is definitely her time! She told us she had a dream this week that the world was being destroyed, but she and her kids managed to crawl up to this tall mountain and they were safe. There was an eerie sort of feeling as we shared about the urgency for her to be baptized and to figuratively crawl up the mountain and be saved. She's still reading the history of Joseph Smith book and says she tears up and feels the Spirit every time she does. She said that if he can suffer all of that, she can make it to church rain or shine no matter how crazy her kids are :) she is changing their futures! Her husband is asking her more and more questions, especially about the Joseph Smith book. Sister Kharine shares her testimony to him every time and says she feels the Spirit guiding her to know what to say. Ooh I hope someday we can teach him! Another miracle! Her mother offered to fix their wedding if they would get the cenomar! she is so closeeee!!!!! She is pulling herself up, saving and praying and I know someday she is going to make it to the waters of baptism.
4. Sister Gain is gone </3 I cried! she all of the sudden got called to Pili to watch her sister's kids- her sister's husband got work abroad and so they need someone to take care of the kids. seriously!?!? this week was supposed to be her baptism, everything was perfect and she was so ready. It's hard cause its really out of our hands and theres nothing we can do. I've just got to swallow it and take a dose of humility cause it looks like I wont be here when she gets baptized. Sigh..it would have been nice to see! We all really are just contributing to the Lord's work anyways no need to be selfish sis mcgrath.
5. We had our amazing bishop and his wife work with us! Bishop Palmis is the most wonderful bishop. We visited Cynthya and Renan who hadn't made it to church all last month. Brother Renan has been working non stop, seeing no possible way for them to survive but to work through Sunday. They have a date reserved at the temple for their family sealing, and they just can't NOT go to church. The night before we told bishop all of this and he volunteered to come work the next day. We sat on the cement floor with their whole family, I love their kids so much! We sat and reminded them of the blessings of the temple and that they were so close. Brother Renan got choked up and told us he really, really will have no food for his kids if he doesn't work during church. Bishop and his wife were amazing, they both bore such strong testimonies. Sister Palmis told them that they too, when they were a young family lived in a bahay kubo and had literally nothing. She bore testimony of sacrifice and obedience and it made us all cry. Bishop as well counseled him to save a little bit each day so they could buy rice on Sunday. He told him that it might seem like a sacrifice but its for the eternal good of his family. We all were teary, and the Spirit guided Sis A and me in everything we said. I asked brother how he felt at the end, and he said he felt the heavy burden inside him become light. He said he knows God will provide. What an amazing thing to see the atonement lift this struggling father trying to do the right thing! All of them came to church on Sunday and my heart couldn't be happier!
6. We hiked all the way out to sister Shirley and caught her as she was about to get water from the creek. Even though it was raining we hiked down there with tons of plastic bottles, filled them with fresh creek water that they drink and use, and carried them all back up the hill. I swear these mamas rival the pioneers they are so strong!
7. We taught Sister Gemma and her 9 kids, all of us sitting on their wooden bed above the muddy floor. We taught with just the light from our cell phone, but her kids were all quiet and so drawn in to our lesson. We asked them to be baptized, they said yes, and they actually came to church yesterday. Sister carried her babies and the oldest girl Christine helped out. MIRACLES! I love the humility and pure goodness of these people and don't think I can stand to say goodbye.
8. We taught a less active sister whose whole family has gotten so caught up in work that they cannot come to church. All good things, Christmas parties and teaching and things, but due to she and her husband's high jobs at the schools they cant make it. All that day I felt like we were asking "is there any room in the inn?" and its sad to see the irony of being so busy with Christmas events that there isn't any time left to take the sacrament and really remember what its all about. I had the prompting as we sat in her home to never ever open any doors that would possibly lead to me not being able to attend church. There's no way, its not worth it. No job or any amount of money is worth trading that sacred time of sacrament.
9. And now number nine, the memory that is so painful but that I still don't want to forget. This week we got a call that our sweet sister Rene Merenia passed away. I was in shock, she was only a little bit sick, but all of the sudden died. Since we got the call on Saturday it has been occupying every space of my mind. Sister Merenia is the sweetest lady, and was the only member in their family until after a long time of fasting, her youngest son Gary was baptized as well. Sis Merenia did the temple work for her husband, and was sealed to him by proxy in the temple because he passed away a couple years ago. Every visit she would share what she read in the Book of Mormon that day, and always bear testimony to us more than we ever did to her.
As the reality started to hit that she was gone, my mind immediately went to Gary, a relatively recent convert to the church who, in an instant, became an orphan. After losing his father, and now his mother, he is the only member now in their family. The night before his mom died, he ran to the church even though there was a dance going on to get someone to give her a blessing. The elders came, blessed her, but in the middle of the night it was God's time to take her and she died right in front of Gary. He called us on Saturday to come to the funeral home because he didn't know how to dress his own mother, if he was allowed to adjust her garments or anything. We went immediately, and by just one look of him I lost it. Waves came of uncontrollable tears for Gary and what has just happened. the look of pain on his face is engraved in my head, even if I wanted to forget it I can't. We arranged things, and last night we gathered a funeral service together. It was held in Gary's grandmother's home, with all of their extended family in attendance who are pure Catholic.
We arrived with a few ward members, the bishop, the elders, and thanked them for letting us come. We had a very simple service, elder Pring gave an amazing talk about the Plan of Salvation. The Spirit was so strong, I know that she is fine and happy and at peace, its just every look at Gary would set me off again, this poor poor kid. He was just sitting on the ground sobbing. Bishop invited him to say a few words, and he took a deep breath, stood in front of his mother's coffin, faced his family and told them, almost begging them, to listen to the message of the restored gospel. He bore testimony of the reality of eternity, that they could be sealed together as a family. His family had the nerve to hiss negative comments as he was bearing testimony to them, he didn't stop though. Even though they were rolling their eyes he stood taller than he ever had and told them he knew the church was true. I was in awe at his strength and sobbed as his family was being loud and disrespectful behind our backs. He cried too as he spoke, it was the most heartfelt testimony I have ever heard.
After, I was asked to say the closing prayer, after calling Heavenly Father's name I couldn't speak from the tears choking me back. I cried and cried through the prayer, begging Heavenly Father to comfort Gary and his family and thanking him for knowledge of the plan of salvation. It feels like my heart is lead, gravity feels much stronger than it used to be. Earlier we had listened to the talks of the Christmas Devotional, lines echoed in my head that Christ is the light of the world. This Christmas I know that is true more than I ever have. If Christ had not come, if he had not been born as a tiny baby into a world that would reject him, happiness and salvation would not be possible.
I might never stop crying for feeling the pain of Gary's loss, but because of Christ I know no one is lost at all. The lead in the heart of all those that suffer can be made light, he is the literal light of the world. Nothing is more important than the blessing of an eternal family, no death can sever those promises. This Christmas I give inexpressible thanks for the gift of the atonement and the reality of eternal families. I don't need or want anything, those things of most worth I have. I'm grateful this Christmas to live, to experience joy and pain and tears. Because of him I know tears wont last forever. Please keep Gary Merenia in your prayers this week.
There you have it, 9 memories from my week, 9 tiny peeks into my life. I wish you could all come and experience it right by my side, this mission is the most heart opening experience and I humbly thank Heavenly Father every night for the chance to serve. I love you all, hope you enjoy Christmas this year! Love you all so very much!
Love Sister McGrath